when you left

6.28.2012

IMG_0565 IMG_0569 i use to believe you'd fly. remember? as a child, flying was close to being free. you were free to go now, and so i believed you'd fly. there wouldn't be a need for wings to sprout like leaves on a tree, to unfold magnificently like a butterflies'. oh no, you would fly with so much more grace than they. i thought your feet would peel lightly from the ground, heels lifting first and then your toes, until all of you was air born. the sun would wrap its rays 'round you like a cloak of gold, not concealing you, but making you shine. as you made your way through the clouds, water crystals would catch in your hair and on your skin. cobalt and beryl droplets reflecting the open sky. there you'd be, rising higher past the tree tops. until all you could see is a patchwork of land underneath. greens and browns. and you would close your eyes and smile sweetly. because you knew, you'd see colors you'd never seen before, in the place you were bound for.
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but here you stayed, or so i thought. eyes closed, a smile on your quiet lips. now i understand, this wasn't you. just what was left behind for us. your eyes weren't shut tight, not really. you saw clouds and bright lights and a sea of glass. beauty that cannot be contained into words so simple. now i understand your lips were not sealed, but that you sang a song. a melody which was the sound of being whole, with a voice which was not your own. and now i understand, that you flew afterall.

a letter i found in a stash of my writings from back in the day. it is written to my loved ones, those who have left this world for a perfect one.

12 comments:

  1. Lovely writing. Lovely shots.

    xx.

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  2. lovelylovelylovely. that is all.

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  3. Beautiful...so so so beautiful.

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  4. Oh wow. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever read.

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  5. The way you wind words together is so, so beautiful!

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  6. this is truly beautiful. the talent you've shown in this story is incredible. I love it. <3

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  7. i'm speechless. this is so beautiful, in every way.

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  8. these words are so beautiful and descriptive. thanks for sharing your story!

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  9. i can't even. just. goodness.

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  10. this was so unbelievably heartbreakingly beautiful. wow. so amazing my dear.

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  11. And my soul cried. This was so beautiful- the idea, the words, and the emotion. Loved loved loved it, hon.

    Gabby

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  12. Hi, I'm a friend of your mom's and am still praying for her. I love looking at your photos. I saw that you shot orange day lilies and also queen anne's lace. It reminded me that my husband used to bring those to me (he picked them along the side of the road) and they make a beautiful arrangement. Just a thought for you. Thanks for sharing your photos. I always enjoy seeing them, especially photos of your wonderful family.

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