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2.28.2012

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long time no see, eh? contrary to what it may look like, i haven't been out of the country. nor have i dropped off the face of the earth. life has practically been crazy lately. quite literally, things have changed so rapidly that its hard to keep up. the past few months have been emotionally exhausting and full of anxious anticipation. now though, answers have come and finally the waiting is over. living through the good and the bad is what must be done. i want to fill you in on these changes, without causing anyone to be overwhelmed.
most of you know that my momma's cancer has returned. well, this week she had tests done to inspect the damage. to make a long story short, the cancer spots are too numerous in amount and tiny in size for operation to be effective in removing them. she will instead start on an agressive form of chemotherapy as soon as possible. as always, your prayers are very appreciated. i know she has a long and hard road ahead of her. but my family is staying hopeful. we'll give this everything we've got and fight along side of her. holding a balanced outlook on this is tricky. being overly positive and ignoring realistic facts, or letting every single negativity in. every person reacts to this situation differently and that's something to keep in mind. i just want our words and actions aiming to ultimately keep her going. it means so much to have the support of friends like y'all, just know i'm thankful that you're there for her.
so...there's this boy. smiling. this is the happiest news i have to share. little did i know back then, that i would be sitting here, typing out these words. little did i know back then, that God was preparing me for this. if i had one thing to say about this guy, i would tell you that he's a blessing. i am at a loss for words to express just how blessed i am by him. he loves me when i am unloving. comforts me when i am scared. speaks truth to me when i feel lost. oh, and he makes me smile quite a lot. several days ago, one of my friends' little sister asked me why i like this guy. as we sat there in the soft grass, the sun beating down, the words sort of just flowed from my mouth, so naturally and simply, as if my heart knew the answer all along. "well, he's a handsome guy. but, you know, there's something deeper to him that i'm in love with. what really draws me in is his heart. his disposition and his genuine nature. and he waited for me. that's the best part of this. its like we're meant to be, even when i didn't see it, he still could." so here we are. embarking on a journey that this girl couldn't be more excited about.
another positive one. my sister and i have a car now. she's much more thrilled than i am, mainly due to the fact that she drives more than i do. because of privacy reasons, i can't go into detail on the model or appearance. i'll say though that she's (because its almost discriminating calling this car an "it") a speedy little car. my sister insisted that we name her cleo. i'll admit that i am relieved to have a car finally. she'll without a doubt come in handy for the coming year, what with driving back and forth for college. she has an enormous trunk as well, my twelve year old brother self tested it and insures us that we could easily fit seven people in that space. not that we'll be trying that... ha. a big shout out to my mom and dad for this wonderful little car!
sigh. with all things said, life goes on. my blog design, done by the lovely carlotta, is something new and fresh. i'm rather stunned and impressed with her work, of bringing my vision to reality. what do you think of it? it takes me to the thought of spring, reminding me of all the new things to come. the things i am excited for, the things i have yet to face. but i'll have faith to trust that in the end, everything will be okay. and now that the "biggies" have been shared and said, i can move back to my regular posts on the remarkables and little nothings of my everyday.

i'm happy to be back. happy you're here.

11 comments:

  1. will be praying, dearie.
    loving your new design! carlotta is truly talented. :))
    -jocee <3

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  2. oh, praying, for sure, madison. stay strong, dear.
    annndd this boy sounds quite wonderful. I'd love to hear more about him. (: can we have his name, or no? people that are such a support and blessing in life are indispensable.
    yay for a car! that's hugely fantastic. (:
    last but not least, your design is prettypretty. do you know what font is used for your "fromage" in the side-header? I like it a lot.
    ♥♥

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  3. so, first of all, I just wanted you to know that I'm still praying for your family. I can't imagine how hard it must be! and yes, I've already gushed about you and your guy, but I'm truly happy for you. it makes me a bit giddy to think of it :) oh, and yay for new cars! I'm so glad you like the design--I had lots of fun working on in.
    so blessed to have a sweet friend like you, madison!

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  4. Wow. So much going on! First off, I am so sorry about your mom. My family has dealt with cancer before -- I will keep you in my prayers.
    A BOY you say?? =D That's awesome, girl! He sounds wonderful. Can't wait to hear more about him ;)
    A car, too?? Lucky, lucky. I'm actually fixing up my dad's rusty, old pickup truck, in hopes of having something to drive. So happy for you guys!
    Last, but most certainly not least, this design is the cutest! I didn't know Carlotta did blog design, but she certainly did a great job. i love how simple it is.
    Pleased to hear from you, dear! I hope you're doing well.
    xoxo,
    Jessica @ Diary of a Beautiful Soul

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  5. I'm definitely praying for you, dear! Although I've never known any one close with cancer, our family has been through similar difficulties, and prayer support helped us so much. Just two more things :)
    1.As soon as I saw this post on my dashboard, I clicked over here because I was dying to see what the new design looked like! and yes, it's gorgeous.
    2. a BOY? he sounds darling, and I can't wait to hear a little more ♥ aww
    xo.

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  6. I've been keeping up with your mom's blog, and I have been praying for you, dear Madison! I can only imagine how tough it is.
    And OH MY A BOY!!! Just so sweet, I loved all the things you said about him.
    So glad you're back, and this new design is just lovely!

    ~Natalia

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  7. cleo is an adorable name for a car :) and I love your new blog design! but my favorite part of this post is the boy. :) so glad to see you back!
    I'll definitely be praying!

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  8. Life certainly is beautiful..and it has its rough spots, too. If I could, I would give it a bear hug and kick it at the same time. :D

    Loving your blog as a new reader, Miss Madison. :] \


    -lucia @ lucia, etc.

    www.one-beloved.blogspot.com

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  9. love love love your blog.

    you are an amazing writer.

    and those are amazing photos.

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